When you just don’t want to Live anymore

For some of us, it gets like that.  During times like that, life sucks and it is hard.  Times like that are more than difficult:  they are impossible and during those periods there is a complete lack of joy.

In fact, all one sees during those times is bad.  All that one feels is pain.

For the Christian these are difficult to say the least.  Times can become so painful and overbearing we can get where we simply don’t want to live anymore.

We see life as horrible and our relations and accomplishments as nothing but failures.

These characterizations can be completely real and honest;  yet, once again, the Christian MUST see beyond the immediate or the elements in front of us or the barriers during the present.

For in all the cruelty and badness we are encompassed with, the GOOD is also there. The problem is:  at the moment, one cannot see the good for we are blinded with our own problems and with our own circumstances.

During those times, we need to buy time. During those days when you no longer want to live, one must force them self to see that exiting out of this world is selfish.  More importantly, one must know and realize that the world is not static and no matter how difficult or impossible our circumstances seem at the time, things will change.

No, I won’t lie and say everything will be alright.  They will NOT be alright.  But, what I am saying is that God is Good and life is worth living because of HIM.

And because of Him, there are many other people involved and they too are worth living for.

And so, when life is not worth living and we don’t want to live anymore, we must—–I repeat, we must look at others and climb out of the grief of self.

Once out of self we will see the good and when we see the good we will also see our Lord in the middle of it.  For no matter how bad things truly are:  Christ is there with us.  The important thing is for us to remain with HIM.


When We are WWrongG

As it happens, being human and subject to available facts at the time, we are most often wrong as our judgments and perceptions are only built around whatever data is available to us at the time. This is not exactly a comforting thought as most people like to at least think our thoughts and behaviors are based on a sound and rational system of logic.

Even in interpreting the Bible, we are confined to the best interpretation available and must assign ourselves to distant our thoughts from our preconceived notions and ideas.

Regardless of our intentions, we nonetheless manage to mutilate our efforts as we piece together wisdom from one chapter or one book or another to formulate whatever of organized thought we had in mind.  In other words, we tend to piece together a series of actions to scope the information into one complete organism of action and sequence.  This is profound when we do it with the four synoptic gospels. In reality, we ‘force’ the information to fit our scheme of things and this is a distorted truth that is probably more wrong than correct.

In short, most things in our view with life and likely more wrong than right.  Thus, most of our precepts, our values are engrained with a loose system of faith and presumptions.

And as our perceptions change from day to day and from year to year, we also approach the universe differently than from previous days or ages.  And as we age, most of us believe our previous views were more or less immature or otherwise viewed as wrong.

Because of this, in the past we relied more on a system of elders to balance out the views of the youth.  A more well seasoned individual was supposedly wiser and possessed a knowledge more subject to time.

Today’s generations tend to move away from that concept and rely instead on more ‘instant’ information and thus, I think are subject to even more error than those of the past.

Nonetheless, the result will at least be the same:  we will continue to believe in wrong realities and now will not be checked by the knowledge of our progenitors and elders.

The real shame and crime here is that people will be content in being wrong and in being satisfied that the answers gleaned are sufficient and good enough to strive forward. However, we must remember that our wrongness can never be good enough for the large measure of truth we search for in life and in Scriptures.  In the end, our quest is for the truth and for the peace given as a result.  To all of this, the only answer that is succinct enough is that of our Lord, Jesus.  In him, we ferret out the truth and enjoy the peace given to us by the salvation of His grace.  And in that, He is never wrong.

Calling it for What it Is: A Cockroach in the Icing (Hand to Hand with Agent X)

Agent X with the Fat Beggars School of Prophets has been fighting the establishment for a long number of years: decades over the issue of the church taking in the homeless.

To that effect, Agent X has mostly lost the battle with the churches as simply put; all those ‘good’ people don’t want to mingle with all those ‘bad’ people.

In easy terms: the homeless are a group of cockroaches that stream out of the woodwork and do nothing but contaminate the beauty and purity of the church buildings and congregants.

Nobody loves a COCKROACH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

As much as we Christians say we love others and love all and possess the love of Christ: WE DON’T!

Sorry, but I call things the way I see them and we simply haven’t arrived when it comes to intimating the love of God through His son, Jesus.

We make excuses: we appear inept. We are afraid and reticent. We can’t bear to focus on the ugliness of ‘those people’ as we are afraid we could BECOME like ‘them’.

God forbid that we should have to drink a bottle of ‘Old Crow’ or smoke a cigarette butt found on the wayside or eat a discarded Twinkie or mingle with those who smell of drugs, alcohol, stink, urine and grime.

We have become so infused with avarice we are unable to see the Lord humbled with His masses, those outside the church: the dejected.

And in that process we have also put our Christ in the same image: the dreaded, despicable COCKROACH who spoils the entire cake.

After all, who can eat that cake after the musky cockroach has travailed along it’s perimeter? Dirt =people and they are all one and the same if they are outside a particular social class.

They have nits and dirt and bad breath and sores and wounds and toothless and matted hair and bugs and a stench that simply will not rid itself without the agent of bleach.

And that is why Agent X loses His battle which is our battle for we are too comfortable watching God work on:

Touched by an Angel or Highway to Heaven

It is there we can sit back and watch God perform his Hat and the Rabbit tricks that so amuse us with heart warming epics and morals.

Only with those guys,we don’t have to go there.

And in the here and now, where are we: Where do we stand by Agent X or with Tom or with you or me or them or with anyone who has been cast aside?

Let’s just say I won’t hold my breathe if I have to count on the church to pull me through. They are too busy watching it on television.

In the meanwhile while waiting on my earthly salvation: I’ll have to dwell with the rest of the roaches until such time as someone recognizes that Jesus is here, down there with us on the peripherals. He is here alongside with the rest of us roaches.

Thank God for the Gospel of Salvation and for His son, Jesus. I wonder who next will speak for those who are there asking to come into HIS FOLD? My guess, it’ll be simply another cockroach calling in all the others into the Kingdom of God…Who will lead the way?


The Death of Jesus (“A good Day to Die.” Chief Dan George)

Matthew 27:50–53

Aside from the tear in the curtain of the temple at least one of the grand occurrences is the rumbling of the earth and

the opening of tombs whereas the saints arose and then walked the streets of Jerusalem and presented themselves.

This is not much said for such a spectacular demonstration of power: only a few words in illustration of the important event: RESURRECTION.

One could ask the question—did these saints ever die again?      A good question and we are not told the answer. We can guess that they later ascended into Heaven with our Master, but this is only an hypothesis. Obviously, had they hung around, more would have been written about them.

Of course, the news here in the death of Jesus is that Jesus conquered DEATH. 

In the death of Jesus, immediately upon His death and thereafter, the incredible feature is that all we see is LIFE!

And with Jesus’ resurrection and ascension we witness a promise of eternal life and evidence to it therein.

Jesus is life. The death of Jesus is life and the hope and future with all believers is LIFE.

Even today,in the absence of any good news: poverty,disease,death and more---we still possess the inheritance of God’s kingdom through His son, Jesus, the Christ.

The choice is a simple one:  the knowledge and wisdom of this world, or the truth and guarantee of our Lord, Jesus.

This decision should be an easy one: choose LIFE with Jesus.  The value of our souls are the same as with the saints of ancient days.  We too shall walk and give testimony to others now and after death.  For with Jesus there is only one word to describe our mission...and that word is life through Jesus that He gave by virtue of His blood on the Cross at Calvary.

Unless you Repent

In Luke 13:1 and then again in Luke 13:4 we see where two tragedies occurred and life lost.

While Jesus assured us that the people did not die in accordance to their sins, he warned for us all to repent or else it could also happen to us. Most would not see this as a good omen. (If you have any sense)

First, While Jesus was in Jerusalem when the tower of Siloam fell, it looks as if he could have prevented the accident but didn’t. The second is that we can not assume tragedy occurs as a result of God distributing punishment in reference to sin.

Okay. Admit it. Some of this sucks. Of course, we can ask why? We can ask why God does not intervene and save us, when we are his children. This is a very natural question.

Whereas the Galileans came to sacrifice, Pilate choose to demonstrate his wrath and thus, the Galileans died in slaughter. Do we witness some parallels?

Is there a similarity with the inferno of the Twin Towers on 911? How about where Isis decapitates the heads of Christians? There is more, but this should be suffice to gain the message. And the message is:

More important than our life or death is that we regard God first in all things and strive to gain merit for positions in Heaven.

Of course, our life here on earth is important: God said our creation was good. However, even more important are our lives eternally.

Yes, I know this doesn’t help much when we’re suffering. Nor does it assist at all at the lost of a loved one or loved ones.

Yet, out of all of that, we are to trust God as Job trusted God in his times of trials.

Jesus warns us to repent: and what should we repent to?

We should repent to the very word of God that saves us from condemnation into righteousness. And in this process we are to lose our life, figuratively and literally in order to gain one presented by God Himself.

In the meanwhile, all kinds of crap is going to happen and continue to happened. And while this all must take place, we should never lose faith in Jesus or in His Father who sent Him. With Jesus we will live forever.


Mark 3 1-6 My allegorical Reiteration (Fat school of Beggars goes to Bat)

And then Agent X and His followers went to church; yet the powers-to-be were there to test him.

Is it lawful to assist a homeless man on the sabbath?” they asked Agent X.

The question here is NOT the sabbath. The question is the value, the worth of God’s Children on any day.”

And so they wished to boot out Agent X and all his men as he and his followers defiled the desires and wishes of the church.

And then again, Jesus was struggling on the streets of Lubbock with no one to champion His cause. Jesus concluded that all had forsaken Him and His people for the churches cursed His existence. Among the harsh cold streets and whispering of the wind: God’s voice could be heard for the forbearance of His Holy Spirit. In that day even those who walked among the righteous shuttered to think of the wrath in the last days of that building and those who roamed it.

At last, Jesus found His home and it was out and away from the church he founded and loved so much. Once again, He found Himself alone.

A Skinhead and two Bears (No Goldilocks there)

2 Kings 2:23-24         Elisha Is Jeered

23 From there Elisha went up to Bethel. As he was walking along the road, some boys came out of the town and jeered at him. “Get out of here, baldy!” they said. “Get out of here, baldy!” 24 He turned around, looked at them and called down a curse on them in the name of the Lord. Then two bears came out of the woods and mauled forty-two of the boys.

Elisha was one really powerful and cool prophet, but apparently he also suffered from some anger issues. Okay, so it’s not okay to make fun of a prophet, but then again: you kill 40+ kids as a result?

Can you imagine if we reacted this way either at church or at school? One can only guess that kids weren’t as bad back in those old days as they are today. Today, we’d have a complete carnage if guys like Elisha were around.

Yet, what have learned since those old biblical times whenever one of God’s elect would cry out to Him such as a Samson or such? Do we see a king who claims to be God turn into worms such as we witness in the New Testament?

In fact, the entire opposite is true in reference to how Jesus told us to respond ot adversity. He tells us to LOVE those who oppose us.

Okay, try telling Elisha or Samson or King David that. We might even suggest this to Joshua prior to him killing thousands upon thousands of those who didn’t wish to depart with their land.

Even with the change coming into age with Jesus, this does not give one the right to demonstrate disrespect to His prophets. In the end, God will not be mocked and who is to say some have been forfeited over the years because of their stance on the creator and His people.

Yet, our standard remains: Love ye one another as I have loved ye as you love one another. Too, love your neighbor as your self.

Truly, most of us including myself have a long way to go before reaching the earmark called for by Jesus. As for me: it rests much easier with my spirit to see the bad guys get their butts whipped such as with the case of our friend the skinhead.

Yet, Jesus explains to us: to change and to adopt His spirit: one in which loves and forgives.

Indeed, we have a long way to go before we arrive at that point.

Throw the bums out!

James 2:3     If you show special attention to the man wearing fine clothes and say, “Here’s a good seat for you,” but say to the poor man, “You stand there” or “Sit on the floor by my feet,” (CONTINUED IN THE BIBLE)

Perhaps no one is better equipped than James, the brother of Jesus, to speak not only on the condition of the poor but how we as Christians should address and treat them. James instructs us to love and pose a high regard for the poor. You can’t get it any more clear than that.

As Americans, and as Christians, we have a large tendency to blame people for their own poverty. At times this is highly conscious, and other times perhaps an inward bias as in America we are considered the land of unlimited opportunities. At times, this statement may be true but that does not allow for hard times and conditions.

Nonetheless, James does not limit or impose preconditions on possessing a high regard for all people as opposed to the rich.

Over and over again, James exhorts us to demonstrate our faith in reference to how we take action for others. James is indicative of the fact that he is not so much concerned with theology as with the obedience and people submitting to the commands of the Christ. In this case we see the kingdom is not so much as an object of thought but as an option and duty of performance. This being simply: put your money where your mouth is. That is how James explains faith: through direct and deliberate action. At times, this means people sacrifice for others. It doesn’t mean throwing a dollar into the collection plate. It means getting all. How much more so is it important to avoid favoring the rich?

By yesterday standards, most middle-class people of America would be considered the rich. In some respects, that would mean you would have to avoid you.

How do we come to grips with our responsibility in Jesus? The answer is simple. We are told to seek ye first the kingdom of God and his righteousness and all the rest shall be added. To denote our plus and minuses in this performance we merely have to put the balance scale to the very words of Jesus. I trust that most of us would fail to measure up to the highest standard Jesus calls us to be.

In looking down on the homeless, the forgotten, the sick, the widows, the prisoners and more… We all risk to fruits of our salvation in terms of how we treat others. The gold standard: love your neighbor as yourself is all one needs to know the difference between right and wrong.

Yet in our own time of need there is but one answer and that answer is nothing short of mercy, for in our time of crisis there is no question of merit. We know at that time we are deserving for a strong sense of survival dictates right and wrong. How much are we this way when it comes to others?

That Dirty Rotten…

We have all heard this at one time or another. These are the words and worse—for those who were once either our friends, or our soul mates.

How can this be?

At one point in our life or more we thought these people were the greatest people on earth and at another time, the most horrible.

Both of these statements can’t be true. While it is true that people can change over time, more than likely what has changed is our attitudes.

Downing the other person and criticizing them, running them into the ground simply is NOT right. Oh, I am sure we are justified enough to say all the bad things we can think of about the person, but in reality this is more than likely only our present perception.

Just because one might determine they can’t live with another person or associate with them, doesn’t make them the fiends or terrible people we purpose.

At one point we thought the other could do no wrong. That they were perfect and beyond approach. However, with a turn of events, we believe they can do no right.

This is not the Christian way. We were told to love one another, not all EXCEPT those we previously loved.

The attitude of unforgiveness and vengeance sucks.

This is nothing more than bitterness and hate. And most of the hate is a result of the feeling of rejection.

In the wild process of defaming the other person we might just one to provoke an introspection and realize perhaps there are issues with our self we simply need to correct. Perhaps we simply need a more gentle hand.

Or is it we can not get over the hurt and pain and dejection from another that we must fight back with all our worth?

We see this in some: once bitten, not only shy, but out with a full vengeance for ALL people. “THERE WILL BE BLOOD!” we say and demand.

But this is all childish and unbecoming a Christian.

So then, in the end which do we choose? How will we react? And what will be our true testimony for Christ and to others?

The answer lies within each of us and will speak for itself. Hopefully, we will all choose to forgive.

Waiting on your Turn (Don’t Hold your Breath)

For those of us who have sat on the sidelines all our life and watched others rise to the stars there comes the idea from time to time: when is our turn?

We have all seen it often enough: those who are only marginally talented get all the breaks and make it to the top.

Yes, it all seems so totally unfair that some gather all the breaks.

There is even one fellow in California who has won the lotto and other scratch off tickets, big items for seven grand times. This is all so uncanny.

And then we have also seen some of these greats fall: greats such as Tiger Woods, Mike Tyson, Demi Moore, Nicolas Cage, and others, once spectacular, now nothing more than a has-been or a memory.

We have also witnessed many who are lotto winners fall upon nothing but hard times and sometimes death as a result of their winnings. This is nothing to be envied as all the bad and more come with the ‘good’.

Perhaps you sitting on the side waiting your turn is nothing more than providence: God holding His hand against you so that you don’t become like them. Perhaps it is God sparing you from ruin and utter despair.

In our society of capitalism, everyone loves a winner and within that paradigm, a good guy is liked with the notion that anyone who works hard enough can make it. Too, our society loves the underdog and roots them on to victory.

Yet, the Bible is clear: “Lean not upon your own understanding but trust the Lord with all your heat and He will establish your path.”

This is NOT man’s way. It is God’s.

And so then, success is established not by the route or way of man, but with God and should be recognized by us for what it is. When it comes to the admiration of men, we should think it is wrong already, for the way of man is generally opposite of God.

And if you fail…okay, so you failed. Trust God.

And if you are ‘nothing’ in society. Okay so you are nothing among men.

And yes, you are passed by and didn’t get your turn. Okay. So what? What matters is how you are in the eyes of God, not men.

The matters of this world are immaterial in comparison to that of the eternal. Trust God. Again, trust God.

And no matter how lowly or useless you may think of yourself. You are valuable for God says so and too, you are loved by God.

And insomuch you did not get your turn: God will give you your turn and your turn will be with Him forever.

God will redeem you in Heaven and for His purposes and in the meanwhile that is also true here on earth. Our preparations should be for this earth to carry over to another world. That other world is with God and in eternity and there…no one has to wait their turn for it will be then and there and with Him and with Jesus forever.

Made an example of (Sending Messages)

Don’t you hate it when you screw up and the punishers go out of their way to make an example of your behavior? They want to “send a message” to others, they tell you. And of course, the message is not a good one for you. And even though we hear all this about everyone being treated equally, the concept of making an example of someone is not exactly being equal.

Making an example out of someone is exacting justice, inch for inch, pound for pound, to the full and extreme course of the law. The message, naturally is one that suggests that the penalty for such behavior is severe, and is so intentionally.

It seems always that happened to us. We get caught for something, and there is no leniency, only the far extreme, and there we get screwed.

So too we are like that when we call for justice for other people‘s crimes. When injuries are suffered by us, we ask and plea for immediate relief and due course justice. To that extent we desire the maximum so as to fully punish the perpetrator. We want no effort spared for the righteous outcome.

So then we begin to step on the toes for the call of mercy. In retribution for woes against us we go for the extreme, the final boundaries of the law. Mercy is not even on the table. In short, we want an example to be made to drive home a message for those who would aught against us. This should be a point well taken.

We saw the same with the Sanhedrin against Jesus. They wanted to make an example of Jesus before he overturned them or so at least they thought. Utilizing the Romans, the Sanhedrin desired to hammer out a message.

In retrospect, what do we really asked for? Do we want mercy or is it justice? Do we really really want an example set? What message is it that we really desire?

Supernaturally we should be asking for the capability and the ability for patience love and forgiveness. More often than not this is not the case. For some crimes against us, it stretches the sensibilities of being human. Thus, the need for the Christian experience. Only through God can we separate flesh from spirit. The flesh demands man’s blood. Spirit beckons for forgiveness.

The appeal is to Jesus to go beyond our limitations. Initiating this must be our desire to yield to the satisfaction of anger, hurt, and injury. The goal is Jesus. The goal is to rest at the foot of the cross with Jesus. Finally, the objective is to forgive.

Those who know more than they do

All the rage today are talking heads, experts, pundits and soothsayers who love to lecture about sexism and racism. These experts would like to convince us that we are all racists, insomuch if you are a member of the white race.

What is strange about this is that more often than not the messenger to these exhortations are from generally elite people with no real experience in the groups they pertain to have expertise. Their argument, generally circular centers on the concept that regardless of the argument, you are a racist and sexist. Somehow and for some reason, a guilt experience of higher middle income people is the fad fanning the flames of most so-called civil rights demands.

Never mind the fact that the messengers are generally rich, and they give no real solution except for total and complete capitulation; the messengers cry for forfeiture of those of whom may wail against an otherwise for the ruling classes to step down.

It doesn’t matter they think, that all groups are competitive and essentially possess the identical falls. All in all they insist we should eradicate all forms of racism but then in that same identical breath, and espouse racism as their entire focus is on racism and sexism.

None of these people of course, believe that they should step down or that they merit a decrease in societal elevation. No not them, but they do believe we should. In their eyes, as depicted by their arguments, everything exists within a we-they relationship.

If you are among those who have succeeded in God for bid are successful, then that characteristic trait alone makes you guilty. It doesn’t matter that you might have suffered from bigotry, prejudice, poverty, or/and lack of economic resources. Facts do not stand in the way of their arguments.

This is not the way of Jesus. Jesus calls all people to his flock,his kingdom. By supping with Zacchaeus, a tax collector and another collector Matthew and with wine bibbers, Samaritans, the poor, and the infirmed, Jesus demonstrated an inclusiveness of all people.

And while there are times that Jesus called people into separation the separation was not based on anything except character or the lack of it.

Christians should not fall for the trap that presently embraces the world: and this trap by and large focuses on economics under the guise of social embraces.

Jesus changes people, yes. But that change is not done under the catalyst of social conditioning. It is done under the transformation of the power of the Holy Spirit. And this process does not involve finger-pointing to others. It involves the individual to come to the realization of the need for the guidance of their creator, the maker.